Friday, July 31, 2009

i really dont noe myself anymore
y cant i jus 4get about everything n jus live my like truely
y m i regretting everything ive done
i so regret quitting wad i quit 6 yrs ago
regret wad i did not long ago
hoping tt had continued wad ive quited
hoping tt i can get a hold of myself
y cant i be dng wad i truely love
everything now is turned against me
even my dad says tt im unlucky
now the only thing i dun regret is meeting you n being ur fren

life stopped at; 5:07 PM

Monday, July 27, 2009

WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
i hav not enjoyed smth SO MUCH 4 a long time
gosh
when was the last time i enjoyed walking hm
i was absolutely lovely.
was walking hm tis afternoon when it started raining.
not the small puny drizzling type
slightly bigger than tt but wasnt big enough to soak u straight away
but the wind was so strong!!!!!
wonderful
the trees were swaying like mad
n i saw ppl wif foldable umbrella tt flipped (foldedXD)
but it was so cool
cooling
the wind blew n the raindrops sprayed on me when i was walking under the mrt tracks
gosh was it fun
i love the feeling of the strong wind blowing against me.
simply enjoyable

it was even better when i was standging at the edge of a road
n a car/van wadeva it was zoomed crazily on the wet floor
the pressure of the wind was so strong i felt as if i wld fly away
man it was such a good feeling i cant explain
wads more was the the small drops of rain splatered against my hand
making it feel even cooler.
last but not least
was the darkness of the sky
the dark clouds blocked out most of the sun
leaving enough to make me feel comfortable
it wasnt too sunny n hot
perfect weather
needless to say
i walked all the way back home without opening my umbrella even though it was in the side pocket of my bagXD

Labels: love for the wind

life stopped at; 9:15 PM

Saturday, June 27, 2009

SHINIGAMI'S CUP SILVER!!!!!!!!!

omgomgomg
i cant believe zettai kareshi is playing on tv!!!!!!
omgomgomg
which mens they are starting to play j-drama on tv?
i hope so
they shld definitely play more j-drama online seriously.
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i realise tt i tend to stare a lot when im thinking...
these few days when im using the com
when im thinking bout some ideas
i wld jus naturally turn my head to the left n stare blankly into my sis's comm
so everytime i think bout smth, i wld stare at her play maple
then she wld be like, 'What?'
hmm
maybe i shld start staring less
makes ppl tink im a weirdo doesnt it?

life stopped at; 1:17 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

wohoo!
guess where i m now?
im in the car!!!
posting with my dad's new hp
so fun
got a full keyboard so fun
dad got tis hp during the pc show
phew
wondered how long we queued 4 the ph man
okok reaching hm alrd.
tadaa!

life stopped at; 7:46 PM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

argh
mathhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
omg i simply cant do math
no matter how hard i try to tell myself to love math
n no matter how hard i try to tell myself tt i can do math
i jus cant do it 4 nutzzzzzzzzzzz
omg
i havent even touch the last ws of the factor n remainder theoren topic n theres alrd 3 ws given out 4 the nxt topic
wth
how fast must they teach
it feels as if i will nv b able to do well 4 any topic(not tt i hav 4 any so far)
but seriously
cant they teach math more slowly...

Labels: rants

life stopped at; 9:28 PM

Friday, May 22, 2009

its not tt i dont want to say it. ive got so many things i want to say.its jus tt i cant make myself do it. ive said too many wrong things.im afraid to say things cos im scared tt its wrong.wth.im jus scared tt i will make a fool out of myself.especially when i noe tt i suck at everything i do.it jus makes me feel tt wad i say will make u tink tt im an idiot who doesnt noe anything.tt may or may not be true,but it jus makes me feel like a retard.i tink of so many things to say,but b4 i do it,iti tink even more of wads gng to happen if i say the wrong thing.u may tink tt im idiotic,but seriously,im trying.i jus cant make myself say out loud wad im tinking but seriously,im trying.ive lots of uncertainty in myself n its hard to get rid of it.but with u arnd,sometimes if tt i may jus be able to do it. so please, gimme some time to tink b4 i say,n remind me to say it cos sometimes im jus scared,or sometimes i tend to jus drift off into tink too much.i treasure everything i hav n i definitely dont want the same thing to happen again.

Labels: rants

life stopped at; 10:26 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

woa!!!!!
hmm.
i cant believe its may alrd.
it feels as if i jus stepped into the classroom thinking,
who are they.
it feels as if i was still desperately trying to rmb names
but now it feels as if i noe everyone from 308 for the longest time ever.
308 rawks
seriously
everyone in 308 rock as a class
its hard to believe but its true
im so glad tt i will be in 408 with everyone next yrXD

life stopped at; 5:42 PM